have mercy on me!

I prayed so hard  during those years when my life was ebbing slowly and vanishing into nothingness.

After falling victim from the merciless and unscrupulous people who have betrayed me, deceived me and disgraced me, I was bent to really have a sure heart-to-heart talk with God one day in my own little sacred space: my heart, then I blurted out saying: "Heavenly Father, have mercy on me, a sinner.

 I believe in you and that your word is true.

 I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of the living God and that he died on the cross so that I may now have forgiveness for my sins and eternal life.

 I know that without you in my heart my life is meaningless.

 I believe in my heart that you, Lord God, raised Him from the dead. Please Jesus forgive me, for every sin I have ever committed or done in my heart, please Lord Jesus forgive me and come into my heart as my personal Lord and Savior today.

 I need you to be my Father and my friend. I give you my life and ask you to take full control from this moment on; I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

 The year was 1998 and the next three years saw myself slowly creeping up the process of discernment for  the Religious life.


 In year, 2002, I finally joined the ranks of monks of a Benedictine monastery atop the mountains overlooking the state of New Mexico.  A mystery indeed.